Do I Press the DO NOT PRESS Button?

I need answers.
It's funny how sometimes we really don't want what we need, because what we need may crumble our world as we know it. Am I ready for that?

Isn't it ironic how someone can know they're on your mind...
Know how much they mean to you...
Know that their life - their sanity - is intertwined with yours...
Know how deep your feelings for them are rooted...
Feel the same...
Yet not really KNOW??
NOT know how flawless and perfect their imperfections are in your eyes...
NOT know the extent of your longing and requisite for them.
NOT know anything, yet they know everything.
Hoping, willing them to feel the same...

And it's still your fault for letting it get this far...
Yet you can't help it. It just happened. And now you're stuck with it, though you'd have it no other way.

I'm sitting in a room; no doors, one window. Through that window i see my world.

The only thing in that room is a red button that says DO NOT PRESS.

I'm faced with a choice: 

Do I press it or do I remain in glorious oblivion?

Do I rush things or do i continue to wait?

Do I ACT or do I wait until I have to REACT?

Run away, or don't run away...?

Oblivion is so much easier

Breathe...

Escape seems way better.

Ridding myself of this decision.

The truth will eventually come out spoken or unspoken...

I think I'm gonna press the button...

-MissAsha

The Rising Sun

STD's aren't meant to be spread
Like butter on my toast, baby, butter my toast
And hurt isn't meant to be our bestfriend
Life's a real bad joke, babe, a real bad joke


The world's a filthy hole in the wall
And we're the junkies riding our high into oblivion.
Rock out 'til the cops come and don't look back,
Run 'til you can dance with the rising sun.


Break the lenses of your glasses, see reality with new eyes.
The sky is green, the water's pink, and all the trees are blue.
Don't trust anyone, everything we know is a lie
We're all puppets dancing to the tune of the government's flute.


There is no world, there is no home, there is no life, there is no truth.
Let's shut our ears and close our eyes, let our uncensored minds run.
I grab your hand one last time to remember the only real thing is you,
I'll set you free, listen to the beat, my heartbeats bum-dum-dun.


I'll set you free,
Listen to the beat
Of your pounding feet
Against clouds as you run.


Run, run, run.
Run 'til you can dance with the rising sun.
Don't look back no matter what, we'll meet again, i promise you.
Some future day
So far away
As we dance with the rising sun.


-MissAsha<3

10 I'm-Still-Alive Resolutions

Sooo I went to a party on Saturday, and it got shot up......(I'm SO done with ghetto parties -___-)

That REALLY put things into perspective for me.

I've decided to make a list of ten things that I'm going to promise to do:
10. Actually try to feed my turtle daily...even though she can live without food for a month. I'd be one grumpy turtle if someone didn't feed me for almost a month...
9. Try harder to like....scratch that, try harder to tolerate fat animals. Baby steps, right?
8. Spend more time figuring out my philosophy on life. Might as well figure it out while I'm still alive!
7. Finish writing at least ONE of my books before I graduate high school! This MUST happen!
6. Be more understanding of deeply religious people, no matter how much I disagree.
5. Help others more. One day I may need someone to do the same for me.
4. Make at least one person smile each day(:
3. I'm going to take risks. So what if they'll think I'm weird or won't talk to me? At least I did it.
2. Let my parents know how much I really love them, because I can be a pretty sucky daughter.

and MOST IMPORTANTLY:

1. I will love ME <3

-Miss Asha's-So-Damn-Glad-To-Be-ALIVE!